Summary:
<blockquote>When Shen Qingqiu died again, a final time, Luo Binghe knew it was all his fault. How could it not be, the way things ended between them? It would be a reward to follow after him, so Luo Binghe must instead live within the consequences of his own actions.
He grasps for anything to distract himself from the aching hole in his very soul and that's when he meets Shang Yuan, a man just as hopelessly miserable as he is.
(Or, the one where Luo Binghe is extremely depressed, runs away to the middle of no where, and makes a hatefriend with a Past that he maybe wants to kiss a lot.)</blockquote>
➤ bingqiu postcanon fic
➤ lbh is miserable because sqq has died again, permanently, and lbh blames himself
➤ this weird recluse Shang Yuan is a compelling mystery for lbh to investigate though......
➤ the fic is deliciously full of angst and misunderstandings and attempts to learn from the past
➤ 75k words in length