summary:
It was one thing to know what his qi felt like in his meridians–although he didn’t know what his neili was called, only that it had a name–and to know that, if he started running his sword forms, his arms and legs would guide him where his mind couldn’t. Muscle memory felt familiar. Reliable. But this? This free-floating knowledge, not connected with any event, any memory, any movement or motion? Just facts appearing in his mind? Assertions he was supposed to accept unquestioningly as truth? With no memory of how he learned them? Nothing to prove their validity?
He clenched his hand around his dao’s scabbard. There had to be a better way than this.
➤ I didn't notice the "missing scene" tag on this fic, it ends without the pov character having learned much of anything about himself or his history and relationships, because canon covers it! I'm left as in the dark as I began!
➤ if you're familiar with mysterious lotus casebook you may enjoy this fic, and if like me you're not familiar with the canon but you have fun being confused, you also may enjoy this fic!
➤ ft. two men with an ambiguous fraught-yet-intimate history between them, connecting as best they can while one of them doesn't know what's going on because of amnesia. Includes wound tending and bed sharing, and sexual interest that isn't acted upon!